WHO am I? Do you find yourself asking who you are? What you do? What should you do? Have you become complacent? Antsy? I have.

What I know to be true... I am a wife, mom, daughter, sister, friend and most importantly, a messy woman of God. I LOVE Christmas, snow, eating, cooking, and shopping. I have many insecurities that hold me back. I fear I'll fail. I am real, honest, and open about my life. My mouth gets me into trouble and my thoughts are not always nice (I'm a work in progress).

Is this enough? Have I lost myself in my small little life? The answer is YES! Now I do not regret my life. I love my husband and kids and the life we have created. But I'm lost. As of late, I have been wondering what I want to be when I grow up...yup I'm 31. I'm not speaking in terms of a career. What are my passions? What are my gifts? How can I serve others? I am on a journey of seeking and growing.

So what's with Martha and Mary... Luke 10:38-42 tells the story of sisters. Martha and Mary. Martha welcomed Jesus into her home. While she consumer her time with all that "needed to be done". Her sister Mary sat at Jesus's feet. Martha became upset that Mary left her to do all the work herself.

As much as I desire to be a Mary, I am a Martha. I am consumed in what needs to be done. But I believe God has called me to a life of balance. Now excuse while I look up the definition of balance. In the meantime, join me on my journey.